Now that you are the vice cap or whatever,i dun think i care anymore,i dun care abt anything related to you now,care to know why?i bet not.I know you are supposed to care abt the rest but now it's different,i am jus a friends,ordinary whatever to you now,different of what it used to be a year ago.I dunno what had changed you,or is that the fact that u r the vice cap now?life's not the same anymore,so are u

Fine forget it,I thought you were only .....IDK WAD THE HELL ARE U TRYIN TO SAY U BITCH! I DUN EVEN GET IT,FINE,TT'S NOT THE POINT BUT U USED TO EXPLAIN TO ME EVERYTHING,NOW FOR WT,U CHANGED,CHANGED ALOT,TH?YN?WL? WAD THE HELL?! AMYBE U ARE DIFF,TT'S WHY,SINCE U LOVE ACTING SO MUCH,WHATEVER! I DUN EVEN CARE IF I'M IN EXCO ANOT,OR NO ONE WILL VOTE FOR ME,OR MR NG THIK MY STUDIES NOT THAT GOOD OR NOT RESPONSIBLE,I DUN CARE U KNOW? NOW U R TRYIN TO SAY STH YET I DIN GET U,U WOULD EXPLAIN TO ME,NOT NOW I GUESS.FORGET IT,I REALISE IF I DIN KNOW U,LIFE MIGHT BE BETTER

"i spent time thinking who i could talk to. someone whom i will find comfort in sharing my woes. and i thought and thought. there's no one for me. no one. no one.
not my parents
not my classmates
not my rgtt friends
not my table tennis friends
not my table tennis childhood friends (all of them).
not my teachers.
you see, didn't i tell you that i'm alone?my overruling cynical self. "

copied this from one of my senior,it's so identical to me....but the thing is she's a national player and i'm only someone who knows how to play.Though wad my mum says to me is really hurtful but i had to admit it's true:I suck at everything,my skills are not up to standard, tt's why coach din used me,my studies are like the same,and my social life?i still dun understand myslef and why they are like this to me,really........i find no one I could talk to,is suicide the only way? thinking alike with the ex-president of South Korea:Yes I do think so..............

What happened?

I have nowhere to start...........idk what has happen between us,we used to sms each other almost every minute,hour and even second,what's happening now?It all started that night to choose who to watch the movie since the sec 1s could not make it.You suggested S,I dun have any hard feelings towards S but I'm sure you know quite well that I din like her,the way that I know you hated H.But you just suggested her so feely,and when I hinted that I din want her to go,You just throw a temper at me.I'm not someone who confronts ppl,I deal with it and keep them all to me,but that doesnt mean you can do that to me.Fine maybe I know you quite well so I apologized first,but unknown to me,you actually took advantage of that...How could you???? I never knew you were like that.The next day was open house,I tot you went to Sentosa instead you were with W all the time,Yes,I admit that the 3 of us are very close,but you could have told me that you were gng,and you tot I could not go but I did....everything is so confusing now. You keep telling me how much you hated Z & Y but now?! You actually asked me whether Y is online....look stop contradicting yourself.I always believe you,and start hating the ppl You hated, coz I tot they were like the ppl you told me,but i was wrong....H is actually quite nice,you talk abt her like so badly.You complain abt S,bla bla bla,but did you actually spare a thought why she actually did that? Do you even know that even though I'm somehow badmouthing abt you here(I'm 100% sure you are thinking of this),it really hurts for me,but I have no one to complain to coz I dun wan them to think I am so close to you but in the end I'm badmouthing you..... If you ever take me as yr close firend now,You would not have done all these to hurt me

You are always the first to know my crushes,yet i dun talk abt them,I listen to yr speech abt W and E,it's interesting i admit,but everytime i try to say sth,you always interrupt to say abt yr things agn.I never complain but yet you have to do this to me.Instead,you only share things with yr bfs or cousins abt the closest stuff,i dun mind but thinking abt it,you dun treat me like one, instead you treat me like any other ordinary junior

I know you and W are doubles partners,so you guys have to be close but............still rmb wad happen during comps this year?You were so angry abt the teachers and coaches' decision, why? because you actually cared abt all these.C told you that you are on the teachers' list on being next year's captain,is that the reason why you are ignoring me now?or is it because you would rather talk to the boys instead of me?I know I sound like someone who is selfish and only want to be yr only friend,you have been there for me many times,I am quite sure me too
All you ever talk abt is W and yr shows but you just gave me a cold ans saying there are other stuff to talk to Y&W ,so i see,this is how you actually dump a friend....

I am someone who forget everything after a night’s sleep,forgive anyone after a post,I really hope everything is back to normal,I really really hope……….

Pray with me,would you?or you actually totally changed?

Hello.Finally i made another blog,this is a blog for me to pour all my feelings out.No worries,no vulgarities.Lol,I have a feeling that I will be so devoted to this blog since no one knows the identity of this blog,hope not